last year was the first year I ever put my head under water when I was swimming. Now every time I think about swimming I think, maybe tomorrow, then I remember that feeling of diving in and looking under water and I want to go. I swam today and yesterday and it was lovely.
I dove under all kinds of times. It makes me feel strong.
We have to push ourselves a little.
We have to try new things.
Right now something new for me is knitting. I sat on the deck this morning and unravelled my knitting. I called Megan first. We both think it is important to finish things even if there was a few mistakes here and there. I tell this to beginner rug hookers all the time. Just finish it. She tells the same to beginning knitters.
She said, “oh Deanne.”
I said, what would you do?
She said, …I don’t know I was never a bad knitter.
That did it. Every time I looked at my cowl, I thought, bad knitter…bad knitter
Then I’d look at the more recent part of it and I’d think…hopeful, good knitter…good knitter.
I want to be happy to say this is my cowl.
When Phyllis , my neighbour at the shore saw my bad parts, she said…oh well just call it primitive knitting.
no way, not with this fine yarn and these fine needles. I want , only …. not too much to ask….to be an adequate knitter.
I have no grandiose illusions of writing knitting patterns
or of even being able to follow a complicated one,
but I want to be able to follow a simple pattern
and I want to wear my cowl proudly and comfortably
and I will finish it.
It wil take me $36 and 300 hours but I don’t care
cause I discovered that is not what knitting is about. It is not about the cost of the yarn, or how long it took to make that cowl.
Knitting is about the sound of the needles as they clink
it is about the music of peoples voices meet around you
and you listen, just listen.
Knitting is about the feeling of your hands meeting each other again and again
like a prayer and a song at the same time.
Knitting is about being there.
in the present moment
calmly and easily.
Knitting is a kind of restful joy.
It is all about the making, the doing, the being.
You can do and be at the same time.
knitting is…it just is
what more can I say